Wednesday, November 29, 2006

On Dreams and Finches


My Dear Reader,

This is my first BLOG entry. Actually I am feeling quite mindless at the moment Yes, I do love to write but I wonder why anyone would want to read anything I’d have to say.

Maybe I’m blogging for me. I need to be writing and I do love to observe life! I have also found quite a bit of fulfillment in describing what I observe. So this is what I hope to do for you…to live a little bit and describe it to you. I hope offer some respect and encouragement to you along the way as well.

I am 45, a mother of many, the wife of a Pastor, a lover of children. I am also a right-brained introvert who loves to decorate things and sing very sad songs. But my very first love (humanly) is thinking.

In my Husband’s study there is a very large cage of finches. We started with 12 in September and now there are 16! The 4 new babies are already as big as the adults. Only their tell-tale black beaks and adorable clueless behavior give them away. Lately I’ve been feeling so much like a confined little finch. (I won’t bore you with the details!) I realize the very things we are best at in life, the things we are most gifted at, are the things that are taken away from us – to test us... Like the caged creatures who love most to fly. Like the Physician who suddenly finds himself in a hospital bed with amnesia. God puts us, on purpose, in situations that seem to handcuff us….and there we become small...and smaller. And there we begin to see the bigness of God.

My absolute favorite movie of all time is It’s A Wonderful Life. I love the part where George – full of his own dreams- welcomes his brother (and to his surprise- his brother’s new wife!). He learns that his brother has had a job offer that is unbelievable! This means George will have to give up his dreams and stay home and take care of the two-bit Savings and Loan! George finds himself completely frustrated and confused… that’s what limitations feel like. The ‘if –I-could-only’s…Like the innocent little bird who smacks his head on the top of the cage! The confusion and frustration alone can cause us to doubt our whole world! But really the limits we feel are only human- earth stuff. The real world exists beyond what we can see! And for us who know God – He is doing something way bigger than we can imagine! The key to contentment is the bigness of God. I often wonder how much we’ll complain in heaven when we’re standing before His throne- engulfed in color and exquisite sounds…perfect light…and limitless soul-gripping joy. Will any of this matter there?

I rather think being small in heaven will be way enough!


In grace alone!
Anne of the House

11 comments:

Shiloh Guy said...

Dear Anne,

I would like to welcome you as the first female member of the blogosphere. You will find our colleagues congenial and gracious. We will also look forward to hearing your comments on our own efforts. I look forward to reading your future posts.

Anne of The House said...

oh my shilohman! Thank you so very much. I am indeed honored!

Anonymous said...

Correction: Yakimaniacs is both male and female, lest thou forgeteth!

Welcome to Anne of the House! I enjoyed reading you this morning and am happy to share your love for "It's a Wonderful Life". Our family watches it together every Christmas. This Christmas Eve the 4 of us will be watching this very movie on the big screen in Glasgow, Scotland...we already have our tickets.

Thank you for sharing!

Smoking Christian said...

I would also like to welcome "anne of the house." My first reaction was also that it will be nice to have a female on the roster. But, then again, I don't want to ignore Mrs. Yakamaniac. I'm just always a tiny bit confused about whether Mr. Yak does all the actual blogging or not?
Hence, anne could be the first. I suppose only Mrs. Yak can verify our supposition.

Anyhow, your blog looks nice, I like what your wrote, and I hope you enjoy our little hobby. Is that your art work? Will we be seeing more of that? I plan on featuring mine as well the very second I figure out how to hook up this scanner. It's used and has no instructions. I think I'll just destroy it now with these leftover explosives from my gold mining days. BLAMMY!

Shiloh Guy said...

My public apologies to Mrs. Yak. I repent in dust and ashes (something I have been doing a lot of recently). I would, however, point out that the author (singular) of Peter's Ashtray is listed as The Yakimaniac (singular). There was no slight intended and I am grieved to have caused you any pain. I should have written that Anne of the House is the first female to be working alone on her own blog because we welcome all the women of blogworld whether they are posting blogs or comments. Mea culpa.

Yakimaniac said...

I too welcome AOTH to our quadblog. (Is it now a quinblog? When it gets up to a sexblog then I'm out!) I look forward to a fresh new-someone said literary-perspective.

I too have seen It's a Wonderful Life but our family Christmas entertainment tradition runs more towards Monte Python's In Search of the Holy Grail so I'm a bit handicapped on this score. "A bit."

Yakimaniac said...

I WAS pouting...(just a bit) to have been forgotten so easily. Apologies accepted.

Tis true, Mr. Yak does most of the posts on Peter's Ashtray. I have written a couple. My most important job as half of the Yakimaniacs is to censor Mr. Yak's more outrageous posts. I've had to threaten to delete the entire blog once or twice if he dared post something he had written.

It's a tough job, but someone has to do it.

Welcome "Anne of the House". It will be refreshing to have at least one apparently sane person sharing their thoughts.

Mrs. Yak

auntie ski said...

Welcome Anne of the Wooden House! I shall be checking every day, with my cup o'joe in hand for a cozy read of your stream of thought for the day! I look forward to experiencing a bit more of your right-brained world!

Anne of The House said...

Dear Mrs Yak, I can relate completely!! My own husband is ...well...editable. (and lovable!)

Please keep in touch!

Anne of The House said...

Heya Auntie Ski-
Thanks! I love ya so much!

OG said...

I take two days to get some real work done at the office, and when I get back to the blogosphere, I find we have a new friend.

To paraphrase Clarence Oddbody, AS2, remember that no person is a failure who has friends.

Welcome AOTH.